Tuesday, November 25, 2003

Recently I haven't been able to sleep in. Terrible huh? Sleep used to be my way of escaping from things, and now I have no means of running away from my thoughts.

I have only known him for 2 weeks, gone out 3 times, smses everday, phonecalls. The past coupla times I went out with him, I actually pulled my hand away when he tried to hold it cos I thought it was too soon for that. But yesterday. Yesterday was different for me. I let him hold my hand. It feels right, yet so wrong. Did I let him hold my hand too soon? We've only gone out 3 times, for goodness' sake. Does that make me 'easy' or 'cheap'? I am more afraid for myself. I'm afraid of falling for someone and feeling vulnerable. I'm in danger of that with him.

He is the male version of a female buddy. We talk crap, make stupid comments and actually 'get' each other. I don't feel like I have to be someone different around him. And he is the sweetest thing ever. Basically, I've never felt more comfortable with a guy. But that's not enough reason to let him hold my hand on a 3rd date. HELL! I'm sounding like a prude here huh?
It's just holding hands. Anyways. I am afraid, very very afraid. I think I am much better off being single, maybe I am more suited for that. URGH. Stupid guy. Why did he have to come into my life?




posted by Purleh @ 4:20 PM

Monday, November 24, 2003

Going to this Cadavers Exhibition with Kelvin later. No idea why guys like to see such things. My father's thinking of going for that thing as well. Well...it sounds rather exciting, I'm just hoping I won't get squeamish, or rather, nothing will make me squeamish.

Anyways, its the beginning of the hols for me...its good...I need some break. Trip to Thailand definitely will refresh me. Prob after Dec 5 cos I still have to go back to school for some work and to tie up some loose ends rah rah rah. I think I also need the break to decide on certain things.

Should dating be a kind of 'strategy' and 'game'? Does having 8 ex-girlfriends make one a flirt/Casanova? Why me?

I don't know, man. I'm trying to find out as well. Ah well...I am going kookoo. What's new?

posted by Purleh @ 6:26 PM

Friday, November 21, 2003

Photos of my kiddies here

posted by Purleh @ 6:45 PM

Sunday, November 09, 2003

It is 10:34am on a Sunday morning and I am awake.... And wondering how the hell you are, woman. I hope things are okay and nothing horrible is happening to you, like you got turned into some zombie on Halloween or something. I'm shit tired... but I'll live. And hopefully talk to you soon.

posted by Purleh @ 7:35 AM

Saturday, November 08, 2003

It is 8.23am on a Sunday morning, and I am supposed to be at the Human Life International seminar...the fourth and the last day of the Congress. So what am I doing here online then? Because, I have no idea what's wrong with my body. Woke up feeling really itchy, felt the gurgling of the tummy - diarrhoea, and my scalp was itching like mad. Scratched my head pretty hard, and some strands of hair fell out. Out of curiousity, I decided to just tug gently at my hair to see if more fall out, and, man! I don't know if this will qualify for the term "clumps of hair"- but like, maybe 5-8 strands of hair came off per tug, and I didn't just tug once. Needless to say, I'm pretty scared shitless. Plus, my thighs' got these big patches of rashes, and I'm scratching like a monkey with nits. My mother the paranoid told me that's one of the symptoms of diabetes, and even went on to say how she's noticed that I've been consuming lotsa sweet stuff lately. She's prolly paranoid cos of my grandmother, but wah laus. She REALLY does NOT make things better for me, man.

I'm gonna see the doc later. This is too scary for me, man. Diarrhoea, hair loss, rashes, itchy scalp. I wonder what's wrong with me. I hope nothing's wrong. SCARED.

And cos I'm human, I've come up with a few theories to tell myself that I'm probably okay.
Itchy scalp plus losing hair: Maybe the kids at school gave me nits??? And maybe cos of something I ate last night at this friend's bbq? And the hair loss is caused prob by me scratching my head a tad too violently.
Rashes: Same theory as above. Maybe I ate something wrong, as opposed to "one of the symptoms of diabetes" like my mother said.
Diarrhoea: Prob cos the food at the BBQ.

Heh heh. After stating all that down, maybe its cos of food allergies huh? I hope so man. Somebody console me!!!!!!!!!!!!

posted by Purleh @ 4:29 PM

Friday, October 31, 2003

haven't been blogging, man. been damn tired. blah. but I'm enjoying myself...haha! Kids are wonderful! I'm so looking forward to going Thailand for a break soon. Snorkeling and vegetating. Bliss. What more can I ask for. heh heh. Okay. more blogging tomorrow or something. Zzzzzz.

posted by Purleh @ 5:19 AM

Saturday, October 11, 2003

Here's something for me to remember everyday. It will be my motto. *nods* yes it shall be.

Work like you don't need the money.
Dance like no one's watching.
Sing like no one's listening.
Love like you've never been hurt.
Live like it's heaven on earth.

posted by Purleh @ 1:04 PM